venting
So i have alot of things i have been thinking about lately. so i thought what would be the perfect place to let it all out on? tumblr ahah anyways ive been noticing alot lately that people have been distancing themselves from who they use to be. im not sure why or the reason why but it seems that everyone is trying to put themselves into a horrible hole that there not going to beable to dig themselves out of. i know that sounds hypercritical of me but i dont care because i know what i am talking about.
another thing i have been thinking about alot, is how im quickly coming up to 18 and i can not believe it. Im not so proud of what ive done in the past or what im doing in the present but i am trying to figure myself out, and i have faith in myself that i can become a self respecting person. the good news is that i have started hardcore separating myself from the people whose only goal is to drag me into there hole with them. i have decided that i am going to be sober. and i will succeed this time. my main plan is to not talk to anyone about drugs until i can do it without wanting them. whenever someone brings it up im just going to walk away or tell them to change the subject. im exstreamly happy because i have some people who i have that are willing to go on this journey of searching for there sober self.
i have to admit i am scared that i will not have anyone at the end of this but at least i will still be alive. and maybe i will find who i truly am and what i am on this earth for. i know the first month is going to be the hardest month, because ive tryed this many times. but i know if i can just make it through it will be worth it.
well if you read all of this than good for you lmao but i doubt anyone did. i was just venting and trying to get my goals out ahhaha bye bye
